"There's Nothing You Can Do If You're Too Scared To Try."

I've been listening to Jealous Of The Moon by Nickel Creek on repeat for the past hour and it's amazing what a song can do to your entire body, mind, soul, and heart. My heart has goosebumps and I haven't had that since I listened to Your Hand In Mine by Explosions In The Sky. I need to base my life off of this song. I need to not be afraid anymore and do things for me, say things I feel instead of holding them in, even if they get me in trouble, at least it's not all bottled up and stuck ready to explode all at once. I will not give up this fight, not for me, and most certainly not for you. Is it weird that I have so many feelings for one person, like I overly care for them and I haven't had that in a while, and it's of the opposite sex? I truly care and love them and I just want what's best for them. Anyways, I was just thinking of Dax, my cousin who recently, about a month ago went off to join the air force, and I'm so proud of him for getting out of that small suffocating town that drowns you in constant drama and force of being involved. I miss my family there, but I don't miss the shit that went down there, it's funny how it can still follow you even when you are thousands of miles away. It effects you more when you aren't there to punch it all away. One thing people need to understand there is I DIDN'T RUN AWAY from my problems, I ran for help, and I got it. I got away from a town so bitter towards my situation and I'm over that. Just let me live my life and go live yours. That's one thing I've learned for sure while being here, live your life to the fullest, around the ones you love, but don't let others dictate the endless possibilities of where you can go, what you can do, and don't let shit and confusion do that to you either. I've also learned, to let others be there for you, let them help, let them love, let them care. Not so much as a sympathy card, but as an individual who has been there. I'll close this entry with this: Life can be both good and bad so embrace them both. They make you a stronger person no matter what and eventually with time, it's going to bring you where you need to be, where you want to be. You go where you believe and don't let others influence you and take you back to where you once were, move forward, have faith, love, breathe, adore, and make sure you do this for you, but let others be there for you along the way. Now hold your breath, make a wish, let it all out, scream at the top of your lungs. You're free, you're you, you've made it this far..... I've made it this far. Celebrate each day and do not be afraid, for you are loved, and the stars, they shine bright for you from high above.