In A Damn Heartbeat.

I want you, but I can't have you. I need you, but I feel like I'm not needed. All I want to do is be there for you, make you laugh when you're down, and be there when you need to talk. I tell you countless times and it probably gets damn right annoying, but I care so much for you that I don't care if I get hurt, I care if you get hurt. You make me laugh with the stupid things we say and talk about, with the stupid auto cucumber joke that we play every time one of is most likely about to cry. I don't know about you, but every time that card is played I break out into a smile. The fact that you remember things, that you care enough to remember and just be there for me means a lot already. I just wish you would see if you gave me even the slightest chance, I'd be there for you day in and day out. What you need to know even though you probably already know is that I give my WHOLE HEART, I strive to make the person I'm with happy, and if I can do that, then I've done my job, I'd make sure you had soup and tea and a warm bed if you're sick, I'd cook for you even though, I only know how to make certain things, but I'm getting better I promise, I'd clean and do your laundry, I'd make you little cards that say free back rub, or leave you little sticky notes all over the place that tell you how much you are love and adored. This all sounds cliche, but, I don't care about others reaction to this, all I care about is you and I want you to be my cliche. I don't care if I'm not treated right, I care more about if you're treated right, if you're happy or content. I actually give a damn about you and worry about if you're okay. I lose sleep wondering about how you are and kick myself for not saying goodnight. It's your turn to be happy, to be content. It's your turn to be with someone who gets it. As tacky as this sounds, I want to tell you so badly that we're done looking.... I feel like you and I, we fit. I'm debating on whether or not I'm going to tell you this, but one thing is for sure, I love you more than anything even if it is just as a friend and that's all you need, I'll be there. I promise, always. You can't get rid of me that easily. I'm done staying cold, with you, I feel like I don't need to, and you've taught me so much about my own heart that I wasn't completely aware of in the first place, so thank you for that. Your Hand In Mine, no matter what.