Racking My BRAIN.

Leave it to me to blog at 6 in the a.m. Between being half awake and the continuous strange, yet very real dreams, I'm determined to get to the bottom of this. Why is it that guys all say the same thing to me, I mean they all say the nicest things to me, but they never actually want to date me. I'm not broken, so does that mean I'm cursed? Was it the countless times I opened an umbrella in the house as a child? I mean seriously, I'm the odd ball out when it comes to my closest friends, they are either: married, married with child, have a child, or are in some sort of relationship. I mean what the hell? I give it my all, I really do. I fall for guys who never fall back, for ones that I can never have in full, who use me until I'm blue in the face. What really gets to me though, is not yet knowing who YOU ARE AS AN INDIVIDUAL. Don't you have to have some sense and figure out who you are to an extent, before you guess and assume and decide to date and figure someone else out? Doesn't that make the relationship successful? By the looks of it from my friends and my family's marriages they are working out great. Glad that this will just keep people wondering who this is about, who knows, maybe it will get him to think about it, yes I said him, get over it, I have feelings for someone. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, Yeah I just went all sinister and laughed even though it stings a little. Just remember fella, I'll be there for you when you get screwed over, and it's then I hope you make your move, just maybe you will. Real eyes realize, so open your damn eyes and realize, because as of now your heart is going to crumble.